I have made up my mind to take 35 pills this time, and it will be dead certain. If only he would let someone call. (Eva Braun)
We'll see. If I don't get an answer before this evening, I'll take 25 pills and gently fall asleep into another world. (Eva Braun)
I have now reached the happy age of 23. No, happy is not quite the right word. At this particular moment I am certainly not happy. (Eva Braun)
Today I bought two lottery tickets, because I had a feeling that it would be now or never - they were both blanks. So I am not going to be rich after all. Nothing at all to be done about it. (Eva Braun)
There is only one thing I want. I would like to be seriously ill, and to hear nothing more about him for at least a week. Why doesn't something happen to me? Why do I have to go through all this? If only I had never set eyes on him! (Eva Braun)
I am so infinitely happy that he loves me so much, and I pray that it will always be like this. It won't be my fault if he ever stops loving me. (Eva Braun)
I sat with him for three hours and we did not exchange a single word. At the end he handed me, as he had done before, an envelope with money in it. It would have been much nicer if he had enclosed a greeting or a loving word. I would have been so pleased if he had. (Eva Braun)
I am racking my brains to find out why he left without saying goodby to me. (Eva Braun)
God, I am afraid he won't give me his answer today. If only somebody would help me - it is all so terribly depressing. (Eva Braun)
When he says he loves me, it only means he loves me at that particular instant. Like his promises, which he never keeps. Why does he torment me like this, when he could finish it off at once? (Eva Braun)
If I had a dog I would not feel so lonely, but I suppose that is asking for too much. (Eva Braun)
Perhaps he wanted to be alone with Dr. G., who was here, but he should have let me know. At Hoffmann's I felt I was sitting on hot coals, expecting him to arrive every moment. (Eva Braun)
He came to see me, but nary a sign of a dog or a chest of drawers. He did not even ask me what I wanted for my birthday. So I bought some jewelry for myself. A necklace, earrings, and a matching ring, all for 50 marks. All very pretty, and I hope he likes it. If he doesn't, then he should choose something for me himself. (Eva Braun)
So he has had a head full of politics all this time, but surely it is time he relaxed a little. What happened last year Didn't Roehm and Italy give him a lot of problems, but in spite of all that he found time for me. (Eva Braun)
Why doesn't that Devil take me with him? It would be much better with him than it is here. (Eva Braun)