Charlie, you're one of the most gifted people I've ever known. And I don't mean in terms of my other students. I mean in terms of anyone I've ever met.
Charlie, you're one of the most gifted people I've ever known. And I don't mean in terms of my other students. I mean in terms of anyone I've ever met.
I don't know if you've ever felt like that. That you wanted to sleep for a thousand years. Or just not exist. Or just not be aware that you do exist. Or something like that. I think wanting that is very morbid, but I want it when I get like this. That's why I'm trying not to think. I just want it all to stop spinning.
And I guess I realized at that moment that I really did love her. Because there was nothing to gain, and that didn't matter.
Craig said the problem with things is that everyone is always comparing everyone with everyone
I don't know the significance of this, but I find it very interesting.
And I know that my aunt Helen would still be alive today if she just bought me one present like everybody else. She would be alive if I were born on a day that didn't snow. I would do anything to make this go away. I miss her terribly. I have to stop writing now because I am too sad. Love always, Charlie
Downtown. Lights on buildings and everything that makes you wonder. And in that moment, I swear we were infinite.
I don't know what I'm supposed to do now. I know other people have it a lot worse. I do know that, but it's crashing in anyway, and I just can't stop thinking that the little kid eating french fries with his mom in the shopping mall is going to grow up and my sister.
And I never felt that good in my life. But I also felt bad because I saw her naked without her permission.
Enjoy it. Because it's happening.
I don't know what's wrong with me. It's like all I can do is keep writing this gibberish to keep from breaking apart.
And in that moment, I swear we were infinite.
Every person has to live his or her own life and then make the choice to share it with other people.
And she looked at me like she couldn't believe I knew she loved Anne Rice. I guess he didn't know how much she talked or how much I listened.
Everyone is special in their own way.
And things were back to normal except we were just friends.
Except that my father got a raise, and my mother didn't because she doesn't get paid for housework, and my sister stopped reading those self-esteem books because she met a new boy
And we could all sit around and wonder and feel bad about each other and blame a lot of people for what they did or didn't do or what they didn't know. I don't know. I guess there would always be someone to blame.
Girls are weird, and I don't mean that offensively. I just can't put it any other way.
As I was walking up the stairs to dad's old room, and I was looking at the photographs, I started thinking that there was a time when these weren't memories. That someone actually took the photograph, and the people in the photograph had just eaten lunch or something.
Girls like guys to be a challenge. It gives them some mold to fit in how they act. Like a mom. What would a mom do if she couldn't fuss over you and make you clean your room? And what would you do without her fussing and making you do it? Everyone needs a mom. And a mom knowns this. And it gives her a sense of purpose. You get it?
As much as I feel sad, I think that not knowing is what really bothers me.
Have you ever done that? You feel really bad, and then it goes away, and you don't know why.
After a few minutes, it was time for me to leave. I don't know who decides these things. It just happens.
As you see the opening get closer, you just can't get fast enough. And finally, just when you think you'll never get there, you see the opening right in front of you.
He's a wallflower. You see things. You keep quiet about them. And you understand.
All I could do is lie there and think about how much her voice changed when she asked me if she was pretty, and how much she changed when I answered.
Because the song was that great and because we all really paid attention to it. Five minutes of a lifetime were truly spent, and we felt young in a good way.
I am really in love with Sam, and it hurts very much.
And even if she says no, and really means yes, then quite frankly she's playing games and isn't worth the price of dinner.
But at one point, Craig was talking about something, and Sam turned to me and smiled. It was a movie smile in slow motion, and then everything was okay.
I can't think again. Not ever again. I don't know if you've ever felt like that. That you wanted to sleep for a thousand years. Or just not exist. Or just not be aware that you do exist. Or something like that.
And even if somebody else has it much worse, that doesn't really change the fact that you have what you have. Good and bad.
But because things change. And friends leave. And life doesn't stop for anybody.
I didn't know that other people thought things about me. I didn't know that they looked.
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