Everything I see and touch reminds me of him, and so everything I see and touch is perfect.
Everything I see and touch reminds me of him, and so everything I see and touch is perfect.
I want to be healed and whole and perfect again, like a misshapen slab of iron that comes out of the fire glowing, glittering, razor-sharp.
I've learned to get really good at this - say one thing when I'm thinking about something else, act like I'm listening when I'm not, pretend to be calm and happy when I'm really freaking out. It's one of the skills you perfect as you get older
Sometimes I feel as though there are two me's, one coasting directly on top of the other: the superficial me, who nods when she's supposed to nod and says what she's supposed to say, and some other, deeper part, the part that worries and dreams... Most of the time they move along in sync and I hardly notice the split, but sometimes it feels as though I'm two whole different people and I could rip apart at any second.
What I meant was, you looked happier in the pictures.
Everytime he brushes me with his fingers, time seems to tether for a second, like it is in danger of dissolving. The whole world is dissolving, I decide, except for us. Us.
I wish I could close my eyes and be blown into dust and nothingness, feel all my thoughts disperse like dandelion fluff drifting off on the wind. But his hands keep pulling me back: into the alley, and Portland, and a world that has suddenly stopped making sense.
Less than a month ago all of August still stretched before us - long and golden and reassuring, like an endless period of delicious sleep.
Sometimes I feel like she deserves a best friend who is just a little more special.
Feelings aren't forever. Time waits for no one, but progress waits for man to enact it.
I wonder whether she was sorry for leaving us behind.
Like I've been sketched by an amateur artist: if you don't look too closely, it's all right, but start focusing and all the smudges and mistakes become really obvious.
Suicide. A sideways word, a word that people whisper and mutter and cough: a word that must be squeezed out behind cupped palms or murmured behind closed doors. It was only in dreams that I heard the word shouted, screamed.
Hate isnÆt the most dangerous thing, heÆd said. Indifference is.
IÆve always hated being looked at.
Love, it kills you, both when you have it and when you don't.
Summer explodes into Portland. In early June the heat was there but not the color--the green were still pale and tentative, the morning had a biting coolness--but by the last week of school everything is Technicolor and splash, outrageous blue skies and purple thunderstorms and ink-black night skies and red flowers as brights as spots of blood.
He is my world and my world is him and without him there is no world.
I'd rather die my way than live yours.
Love: It will kill you and save you, both
That's all I want. Just you and me. Always.
A string of bright white buildinh, glistening like teeth over the slurping mouth of the ocean.
He who leaps for the sky may fall, itÆs true. But he may also fly.
I'd rather die on my own terms than live on theirs. I'd rather die loving Alex than live without him.
Maybe this is the secret to talking to boys--maybe you just have to be angry all the time.
That's when you realize that most of it-life, the relentless mechanism of existing-isn't about you. It doesn't include you at all. It will thrust onward even after you've jumped the edge. Even after you're dead.
Amor deliria nervosa. The deadliest of all deadly things.
He who leaps for the sky may fall, it's true. But he may also fly.
If you hear the past speaking to you, feel it tugging at your back and running its fingers up your spine, the best thing to do - the only thing - is to run.
Mice? Fine. Flying mice? Not so fine.
The ideaùthe fact of it, the fact that he even noticed and thought about me for more than one secondùis huge and overwhelming, makes my legs go tingly and my hands feel numb.
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