When I start the book, I'm The Writer. The writer bitches for a week about how he never has any fun, he's tired of being funny all the time, and nobody cares about him anyhow. This is followed by a period of deep intense silence, much staring at walls, punctuated by cheery optimism on the order of 'That's it I'm Dead I can't think of an ending' or 'I'm just going to have to scrap the first ten pages they're lousy.' Often it is less coherent than that reduced to the more succinct, 'Garbage It's all GARBAGE'